Ranting

Congratu-fucking-lations. You got your tax return. Yippee. Thanks for spending it all on you and your buddy. So we're going to go watch a movie tonight, so what? You don't ever THINK do you? Let me tell you why I'm so pissed off to the point of crying...AGAIN.

First of all, Bella didn't want a fucking TOY. She wants FOOD. She hasn't eaten in how long? And you show up with a fucking rope?

Oh yeah, not to mention that you spent this GREAT day with your butt buddy, while I spent all fucking day at home with the fucking kids. Not to mention that before you left you yelled at me to clean the house. Guess what, genius? I always clean the house! Don't sit there and act all high and mighty just because you got money now.

Oh yeah, and stop talking about your YUGIOH trip. God forbid you don't have enough money to go. And thanks for totally forgetting that you invited to take me with. Oh, you say it'll be too expensive? I think $200 just so you can go to the ghetto of Los Angeles is too expensive. We can't afford for you to be stupid with your yugioh.

And thanks for the BODY LOTION. That cost you, what...$10? I didn't want lotion. I have lotion. I have LOTS AND LOTS of lotion. If you were going to "surprise" me with lotion, why buy the fucking thing in the first place? Really? Thanks for nothing, jerk.

Oh and your kids are hungry. Did you think that maybe you should have stopped to get dinner? No? Well, after not showing up with dog food for the starving animal, I wasn't surprised that you didn't think about that either.

And what's with you spending all this time with your friend anyway? I know this is just me being selfish, but usually you want to do things with me, spend the day with me when you get money. Do we really bug you that much that you don't want to spend today with us? I am so close to just saying good bye, and making you raise your kids by yourself. See how you like it!

FYI...I HATE kids. Just because they're our kids, doesn't mean that I all of a sudden like to be around little people. You're the one who wanted them in the first place.

The biggest mistake of my life is fearing what you would think of me if I didn't keep those children. Granted, I love them, but I can't take it anymore. If I wanted to raise kids by myself, then I wouldn't be here, would I?

So, before I go the bathroom to wash my face of these tears that you caused me to have again, I just want to say this...Fuck you and your selfish ways. Be thankful that my mom is out of town this weekend, because I want nothing more than to jump in my car and drive to my mom's house. Or better yet, maybe I'll just drive until I run out of gas? You filled my tank for me, so I could get pretty far away. It's what I've always wanted to, even as a kid, was to take my car and drive.

Now then, since I have kids crying at me for no reason really I'm going to wash my face and hopefully look back to normal by the time you come back home.

Frustrating!

So, I finally get chapter 3 done, and I can't upload it. Not only can I not upload, I can't login at all! Darn you fanfiction.net! I need to update! WAHWAHWAH!

I admit it seems a little rushed, well that's because I wanted to finish it as soon as I could. I would feel really bad if I were to enter the weekend without an update. A week seems like a long time to wait for a story update, especially after the crappy chapter I uploaded previously! I'm hoping this chapter makes people happy; it's longer, so I think more stuff happens. Mostly it's just Gray being all confused and angry about his sudden attraction to Natsu.

Well, I'm going to try one more time.

Palm Tree?

Here's the colored Happy that I promised. Colored it a long time ago, and just decided to throw it up here just now. And, for some reason I drew a palm tree in the sky...Put a little WTF?!?! factor into it. Heh.

More Fairy Tail

Yay, go Lucy! I'm rooting for you, baby doll!

I love it when Lucy's fighting. Normally she's so timid about fighting, and then when she finally goes up she and her spirits kick ass. She doesn't fight as much as everyone else, but when she does, it's more exciting than watching anyone else.

Granted, I like watching Natsu and the others fight as well, but I don't get hyped with them as I do with Lucy. She's obviously my favorite character, even though I put her through so much shit in my fics. It's the same with Fruits Basket. Tohru is my favorite character, but I put her through so much shit, I felt so bad for her. Before I quit writing Fruits Basket fics, I wanted to write something beneficial for her, but that never happened.

Well, I guess, with Forbidden Thoughts, since it was a Fruits Basket story originally, she became Arkade's mate, so that's pretty cool, I guess, right?

But, back on topic...

I can't wait for the next chapter! Yay Lucy!! =D

Oh, and she's now stronger thanks to Urtear (Ultear?). Super happy fun time. =D

Lately...

I've been updating my fics, finally! I'd like to say that I've been incredibly busy, or having computer problems, or even personal problems...but no. I've been playing Skyrim almost nonstop all week! And, now that Travis got his tax refund, he's going to be gone all day - which isn't that big of a surprise, he's gone all day every day - and I really wanna play Skyrim some more, but I have to update TODAY. I think my readers have waited long enough for an update, right?

I've only gotten three paragraphs of the 3rd chapter for  Magic, and I've started another one-shot about someone being jealous over the NaLu pairing; only this time, I'm not going to reveal who it is! Okay, so maybe not a one-shot. I'll reveal who it is in chapter 2, but that's it. A two chapter story!

Ah, and I've also got a Skyrim fic in the making. It came to me in a dream, like most of my stories do. I've got the whole basic ideas jotted down, but I still need to map it out, and then chapter it. I've gone through the trouble of writing down every name that's involved, which required ten minutes of research on my part...There's only one made up character, aside from my lovely Shani.

Anyway, I'm off to sit at my computer with my fingers on the keyboard while I watch Horton Hears A Who. I know, I need to start writing, but I keep getting distracted by this movie that I love so much. Even now, I'm getting distracted. Especially during Horton's anime sequence.

Horton's the greatest hero of them all, haaah!

After School Nightmare

So, the reason for my distractions from my stories recently has been the amazing manga, After School Nightmare. I swear, at first it was interesting, the whole concept of these kids going to school, and then the few going to a special class. At first, you believe the classes are something bad, but as you read you start to feel like it's something good, like overcoming personal weaknesses and whatnot. Sure, that's what it is, but when you get to the end it like....BLOWS YOUR MIND!!!

There's so many surprises that just make your eyes pop, you wanna scream in frustration, and you wanna cry. I've even caught myself smiling every so often. There was a point in the story when I audibly yelled, "NOOOO," and got some confused looks from Travis and my kids. I hate it when I have audible reactions in front of them. I can't tell them what happened to make me react like I did, they wouldn't get it. First of all, because my kids are only 4 and 2, and secondly because Travis thinks these are all stupid, and I'm stupid for reading them...

Yeah, because you're so damn cool playing your YUGIOH game!

Anyway! I really want to read it again, and I don't usually reread anything. I don't like repeating myself in books and manga....movies and shows are okay, but I can't handle the written stuff. I don't know why...

Well, in the ending notes, the Mangaka even suggested we reread it, now that we now what's going on, and how the story is, and all the twists and turns, all the hidden meanings.

I want to write a fic about it. That last page is with Mashiro and Sou in the same train...which is really cool, considering when I thought Sou had died was when I made my audible exclamation. I literally felt myself crying as I stared at the last page, and I was praying that the story wasn't over, like she (or he) had added an epilogue, maybe showing all the characters that had been born. We got to see Mashiro and Sou, but what about Fujishima? She was with Sou when I thought they all died.

And what about all the "Graduates?" What were their lives like? I imagine that child prodigy as a premie who survived, since he was, after all, a child prodigy, a kid in this high school.

There are still parts that confuse me, like what about all the adults? I mean, I know Sou's mom didn't graduate, so what happened to them? His sister, who died in that world...

And then, Mashiro was the only one who couldn't remember from when the story first started, but everyone else had childhoods, memories...

Despite after-confusion, this was one of the best manga I've ever read, and I'm seriously planning on reading it again.

Right after I read the mangaka's other manga, Black Rose Alice. I really have to apologize to my fic readers again...I'm just getting too pulled into all these manga...

Chapter 1, done!

Did it. Finished chapter 1 of Magic, and nothing feels better than listening to Jay-Z's "Good Feeling" after accomplishing something. Thank you, Pandora, for your delightful contribution to my mood tonight.

Unfortunately, I've been drawn into a manga called "After School Nightmare", and I'm not sure if I'll get to chapter 2 any time soon. Honestly, I've barely gotten chapter 2 mapped out...I have one sentence of the MAP done, which means, if I don't kick butt tomorrow, chapter 2 probably won't be done for a week or so.

Heh, I apologize in advance to my readers. SORRY! But, it'll get done, I can promise that. I'm just not overly working myself to get it done like I've done with the previous stories.